Bah! I started reading Harry Potter 6 and I have seemed to have forgotten all that's happened in the last book. Oooh and of course I don't have the 5th book with me any more. Sparknotes seems to have a good summary, a short one and a long one.

Today was pretty sucky. My whole plan was to be happy and celebrate Rob finishing college by taking him to BJ's Brewery. Well, Rob partied and drank a lot last night with his classmates and was hungover and tired all day. I don't mind him going out and having fun...but fuck, tonight was supposed to be fun and special and we fucking barely talked! And to make it worse, he has forgotten every fucking conversation we've had in the past few weeks. Ok, it's know for guys to act this way, but Rob's never been like this....not this bad!

Like I kept asking him if he had an extra set of head phone since mine were breaking. He gets a new iPod....and gives away the headphones to some guy at work. I'm like, "Dude, I asked you a few times, even this morning and you forgot that I needed some?!" And I've been telling him we should go to the gym together since he wants to get into shape too. He said not yet and blah blah blah. Today he's like, "Jesse said we should go to the gym together!" I look at him and....oh duh, that's right Rob, I said how I'd like it a lot if we went together! Now that hurt that he forgot that since it would mean a lot if I had a gym buddy. Fine, go with him if you want...but don't forget that we talked about the same exact thing!

I understand that he's stressed and tired, but right now I'm getting nothing from him and it really really hurts. Like tonight....like I said, we barely talked at dinner, he just sat there all blah and this was a cool restaurant we had been so excited to go to! He watched tv when we got home and went to bed early. He didn't even want to play the video games I got him. I had been looking forward to tonight was a very long time and it failed so bad*sigh* He knew I was upset...and yet did nothing to help.

Rob said, "I used to spend 33% of myself to work, 33% to school and 33% to you. Now it's 50% to work and 50% to you." I laughed at that since I was clearly seeing it tonight!

I'm trying not to get so angry, but it's not getting any better. I tried to have a positive attitude, but it's hard to keep it up. I know it'll get better, but it really sucks right now.

Well, there's nothing else to do but go to bed now. I hope tomorrow is better and maybe Rob will start acting like himself again:/